I’m not going to go into detail about Z’s illness. Just know, he’s very sick. He’s been down at the Mayo Clinic’s hospital since Christmas Day, almost all of those days he’s been in isolation. No visitors. This has been absolute torture. Most of our relationship has been separated, all of it actually. Fortunately he is able to have his phone, so we can be connected the entire time. It’s so hard not being able to be with him physically. When he’s having a real sick day I would do anything to be there for him. I’ve been keeping a journal of our relationship and the illness. This blog isn’t about that. I keep my blog spirit based since that’s what you come here for. Throughout Z and I’s relationship there has been unmistakable synchronities. Everywhere! Everything from his first line spoke to me (“do you remember me?”) to repeating numbers 222, 444, 111, 333. I’ll expand on that later too!! But there’s more of those coincidences. One of my favorite is that back in about September my ex was just being awful. He wants me to get rid of his last name and I am actually embarrassed having the same name. I was excited for a fresh start and began to make a list of names. I really wanted a last name that started with a “K”. I wrote out probably thirty “KK” names and they all sounded awful so I gave up. Fast forward a few months and Z says to me one night “your first name sounds really good with my last name.” Holy shit! It really, really does! And it’s a “K” name!
So back to the spirit stuff, besides our twin soul connection. There are so many spirit happenings that add up and keep showing me this relationship is God-given and blessed. Because of this life circumstance of illness keeping faith and positivity can be challenging. I have been seeing 222 everywhere. Literally everywhere, road signs, license plates, clocks, online, on my camera roll marking a very special pic I sent to Z, phone numbers, and Saturday night- my hotel room was 222 so the number was literally everywhere in the room. I’ve been surrounded by it for weeks. According to Doreen Virtue’s angel number 222 carries the message “Trust that everything is working out exactly as it’s supposed to, with Divine blessings for everyone involved. Let go and have faith.” Another number I’ve seen repeated is 444. “There are angels-they’re everywhere around you! You are completely loved, supported, and guided by many Heavenly beings, and you have nothing to fear.”
Another funny coincidence is I was planning on coming down to Rochester this weekend and I usually pass through Roseville on my many trips back and forth. Just so happened my spirit friends, Bert, Eric and Kayla were teaching a Voyage of the Souls workshop and hosting a psychic gallery event. I attended this same event last winter/spring in Duluth but I missed out on more than half of it because of guilt my ex husband put on me. With the timing of my arrival I would perfectly catch up on everything I missed out on.
My last regression was an incredible experience. I have found them not always very happy, but I figure this is because we are shown our lives that tie into the karmic debt we have in our current life and to help give us an understanding for certain thoughts, feelings and fears that we struggle with. It’s pointless for them to bring us to our lives where we were wealthy and healthy! What good would that do for us? Nothing really. I bet we could get to that experience if we really spent a lot of time regressing and meditating but personally, it seems pointless. I had two regressions this weekend, one right after another. We spent a little more time on one and just a little snippet of the other. Because of my recent events, finding my twin soul and then having him get sick I needed some insight. Could I see why this was happening in this current life, what are my karmic ties and lessons? Would I actually find him in previous lifetimes? Yes! I did! Twice! AND inbetween lifetimes-the space between! The period when we were whole, together in Heaven. It was incredible.
Immediately after the regression they had us journal our experience. I am going to copy exactly what I wrote:
I had a past life regression just a moment ago. I was able to experience to two lives and a period of time in between lives. The first regression/life my angels brought me to see wasn’t an easy life. I’m not sure the time period but we lived in a grassy green hilly field. England? Wales? I was a Farmer’s wife. My husband I recognized as Z, but he looked very different as did I. He was the love of my lifetimes. He was out on the tractor and had a heart attack and passed very quickly. He was young, close to 40. I was completely devastated. I grew to be a very old woman, my appearance became very ugly, worn from a lifetime sorrow and depression. I never have children and died alone, brokenhearted. But after I died I was immediately reunited with my twin soul-oh the joy of that reunitement!! We became one again. It was amazing. Words can’t describe that reunion, I can’t describe the light. It was like two brilliantly shining lights emerged to form one. It was love in it’s purest essence. It was incredible. Heaven.
I was also given a snippet of another life. I was a very young Egyptian girl. When I was about four years old I began going to a pond or water’s edge. I would kind of play there, alone. One day, a little boy showed up. We were about the same age. We didn’t speak much but we began to hang out there everyday. We played almost everyday until I was about 8. Then one day he just didn’t show up anymore. I loved him, he was my one and only friend and just one day he wasn’t there anymore. I didn’t know what happened and never found out. He just disappeared. Even though I continued to grow up, I felt such a loss my entire life.
How does this translate into my current life? I have grown and understand a lot. I’ve been able to evolve spiritually in this life to understand certain things. I was so devastated by my loss in those lives. I feel very fortunate in this life. Z and I have had conversations about this life, our soul connection and our continued relationship in the afterlife. In our previous lifetimes together I failed to recognize that spirit connection. It seemed in my regressions that we never had those conversations in the past. I feel like even though I loved him like no other in those lives I took our relationship for granted. I wish I knew why. I guess it doesn’t matter otherwise I would have been told or shown. I feel pretty blessed I made that realization in the present. That doesn’t change our present situation, it does help me handle it a little better. What’s different in this life is the fact I can love the shit outta him every single day without taking him for granted.