It’s been a long, long time since I wrote in my blog. My entire year has been shaken up. Ever heard that quote “sometimes our lives have to be completely shaken up, changed, and rearranged to relocate us to the place we’re meant to be.” ? Well this describes my year perfectly. I went from being married to divorced, to single life, to growing my own, new, separate life, to swearing off dating, to focus on my kids, work and myself to unexpectedly, without warning being found by my Twin Soul.
I went through a period where it seemed my spiritual sense and communication was completely shut off. It was a point where I really needed it the most. Every time I would try to reach out to my angels and guides they would allow me to feel their presence but no communication! I couldn’t feel their presence like normal but I still knew they were there. After begging and pleading for guidance all I was given was “You have to experience this alone.” Now, for a girl who relies on her guides to help her with grocery shopping to go through this period of my life alone seemed daunting. It was too much. But one God-given gift I have is Faith. No matter what I trust God, my guides and the angels with my life. Just because we can”t always hear them, see them, or feel them, they are always there. One of the lowest points of this year was after I left my ex, I had no place to go. I stayed with friends here and there but I was so embarrassed I just didn’t want to ask for help. When I left that relationship, I left with a laundry basket full of clothes and my car. I had no money, no place to live. I was about to sleep in my car parked near the beach staring at the full moon over Lake Superior. I left a pretty good life. I had bought my house when I was 19, I put all my hard work into making it a lovely home, beautifully decorated, 10 years of gardening. It was my little haven..kind of. I won’t get into the details about my past relationship but I will say I knew for a very long time I wasn’t honoring my soul and what my path was. I was being told constantly by my guides “don’t let him kill your sparkle” and the urge to break free. My guides weren’t the only ones guiding me. My friends supported me no matter what, they didn’t realize I ever even wanted to leave but my psychic/intuitive friends (who didn’t know my personal life) always said that I wouldn’t be with him. They could tell that was the major obstacle blocking my soul. I told them all repeatedly I wasn’t going to leave. Now they’re all smiling with the confirmation the information they gave me back then was indeed correct and for my soul’s best interest.
This past year has been hard, but I’ve always been a fighter, a leader, independent, not afraid of change. That “good life” I left was good because I made the good parts. I was always happy, genuinely, which is why people were so surprised that I left. I was happy because I made the decision a long time ago that happiness doesn’t come from the outside. I relied on myself to make me happy. This past year I have been the happiest I’ve ever been. Yes, this year has been hard, starting from the ground up at 30 years old but there’s something incredibly humbling in that. Because so much time has passed I’m beginning to see why my “spirit team” guided me to leave and then left me to my own devices. I needed to experience earth life, my head is always in the spirit world. Well guess what, we came to Earth to experience life. And boy…I haven’t even gotten started on what I’ve experienced in this life yet. I think I’ve had a small taste of every traumatic thing that is possible to encounter in this life. And I straighten my crown and walk away like a boss..